i am torn to do what i have to.

I feel down. The layout? Self-explanatory. You're not stupid, you just have to use your brain. I changed my layout, as you can see. I got tired of white so I changed it into a black one. It is as simple as that, really.

If I say, your smile can make me happy..
Will you smile for me?

*lets out a big fat sigh* I don't have much to say. It's just this emptiness within me choking me.. I can't breathe.

If somebody would ask me how much I missed the times I spent with him,
I would say, words can't describe how much I do.

I want to cry but.. 不想再为爱而哭了.

If there is possibly a chance for us to start over again,
I would do anything for it.

Okay, I shan't be wasting my time over here. I have chores awaiting and when I'm done, I'll take a long shower and wash away all my sorrows.. Then, I'll come out naked and refreshed since nobody's home, nobody will see me. With nothing on, I'll lay on my bed still and let my mind wander far, far away..


My mind is filled with memories..
Memories we made together,
memories we never got the chance to..
As much as I want to hold onto them,
I can't,
I can't bear the pain as they play in my head..
I don't want the memories,
I don't want them playing in my mind on repeat,
I don't wan't them to haunt me,
I just want to move on, let go and live my life..
I don't want the memories anymore..
'Cause they hurt me just as bad as you had hurt me.

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I think I did this tag before but meh, who cares.

1. The person who last tag you is:
CRYSTAL!

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
Kawan kuuu.

3. Your five ten impression of him/her:
a) My first impression of her was, "Damn, I bet this girl is like really MATURE and she gets to go out all the time."
b) However, she turns out to be well, a little childish not as mature as I thought and she doesn't have all the freedom she wants? I don't know.
c) That's why she is very fun to talk to.
d) That's why I like talking to her.
e) That's why I can talk to her about ALOT of things, seriously.
f) That's why I am adding more numbers alphabets to this question.
g) That's why she is so very witty and smart.
h) That's why she is not like any other girl I know.
i) That's why I like her very much. Hah hah.
j) That's why she is also a very pretty girl.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Hmm.. I'm not sure but she borrowed me her pendrive with MapleSea's setup in it. Har har.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
There is too many for me to recall. Hah hah.

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
That's not likely to happen 'cause I'm straight, TYVM.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
Like I said before, that's not likely to happen. -__-

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
THAT WILL HAPPEN ONE MEH?! T__T

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
It won't happen or will it? Meh, I'll just stick to the idea that it won't ever happen. :P

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is:
Ew? I don't know why but the word "desire" sounds wrong.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
KAWAN KU! And well, all of the above I mentioned. *points to Question 3*

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:
They think I'm a selfish ignorant bitch, what more can I say? Har har har. You know I'm just kidding hur?

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
What of a selfish ignorant bitch I am :D

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
What of a selfish ignorant bitch I am :D but I can't change that.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
Myself but with a pretty face, slender body and brains.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Thanks for caring and taking me as I am although I am such a selfish ignorant bitch :D

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
#1. Crystal! BACK AT YOU! :D
#2. Edlyn Chan Chee :}
#3. Joan Yanggg :]
#4. Michelle HOR!
#5. Sarahhh :P
#6. SOYA!
#7. Cynthia SLT.
#8. TOTORO Cynth.
#9. Ivy Wonggg :3
#10. Yi Siew :)
#11. Ee Xin x333!

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
I'm not sure o__o

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
She's got big boobs, you think?

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Hah. Yes, very.

22. What is no.2 studying about?
Study whaaat?

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Ehh.. I can't remember?

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
O__O! I DON'T KNOW LEH.

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yuppers.

26. Will you woo no.3?
Har har, very funny. I'm straight, remember?

27. How about no.7?
Refer back please.

28. Is no.4 single?
Maybe.

29. What is the surname of no.5?
I'm not sure o__o

30. What 's the hobby of no.4?
"I love art. I live art. And most of all, I love designing. As you can see, I love photography. If you're an avid reader of my blog, you will know that basically most of my post contain quite a number of pictures." - Michelle Hor.

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
I don't think they've met before.

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
RRSS!

33. Talk something casually about no.1:
She's always lost in reveries.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
-___- I don't want to reply stupid questions anymore.

35. Where does no.9 live at?
Underneath my dining table.. MEH? You can go ask her that.

36. What colour does no.4 like?
I assume it's green 'cause well, her blog's all so green.

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend?
They never met lah.

-There's No 38 and 39 -
(Who says so? I'm gonna add in my own.)

38. Is no.11 everything you're not?
Mmhmm.

39. Does no.1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 and 10 know no.11?
Yuppers, of course.

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
I don't think so. Never heard her mention before.

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
She can pass of as a modelll!

42. What is no. 10 doing now?
I don't knoooow o__o

HAH! I'm done. Now, it's your turn.

On a random note,

I want them pair of shoes, pretty please?