you used to call me your angel.

The long anticipated Breaking Dawn is FINALLY released! *squeals in joy* However, I am pretty sure Breaking Dawn won't be seen anywhere or anytime soon in Miri. Oh, how swell. This is another reason why I want to move out from this "so-called" CITY.

Still, who will be willing to get me a copy? Whoever does, I swear I will make love to you. I asked my big brother if he could get me a copy while he's at Singapore for his training course.. He gave no response. *frowns* Plus, even if he does get me, I won't be getting it until mid September. He will be there for five effing long weeks, I think. And he's only going there this Monday if I'm not mistaken. *sighs* Oh, shucks. Speaking of Singapore, it reminds me of ... CRYSTAL, LET'S ELOPE TO S'PORE TOGETHER! Hah hah. *laughs to self* I seriously want to please.

Anyhow, you and I both know that won't ever happen. I mean, seriously? ELOPING TO SINGAPORE? Hah hah. I think all hell would break loose if I were to really elope. Let's think about it.. An over-protective mother + missing child = TOTAL CRISIS. What? You don't think so? Oh, please.. You had never experienced what I had been through, how would you know? *snorts* My mum would do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in order to find me. I'm SO not kidding. Ahh.. This brings back alot of memories which I do not choose to disclose 'cause it's well, nothing to be proud of. So yeah, don't need to know lah you. Har dee har.

OH MY, GUESS WHAT?! GUESS WHAT?! MY BM TUITION IS POSTPONED TO 3.30PM! YAY! More time for me, less for tuition. Heh heh. Vivien just told me through MSN. *grins* Hmm.. That was kind of sudden and random, isn't it? I guess you can say I'm a pretty spontaneous person. Teeheh.

Speaking of which, wanna see my English oral? I did okay, I s'pose. I sort of got nervous and well, screwed up the pronunciation of some of the words. I was stuttering a little as I spoke, you think? *sighs in despair* Oh well. I guess a 5, 5, 4, 3, 5 ain't THAT bad.. Or is it? Gah, what evs. Here's the poem.

After A While
by Veronica Shofstall.
After a while,
you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that
love doesn't mean leaning and
company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn that
kisses aren't contracts and
presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and
futures have a way of falling down mid-flight.
After a while you learn that
even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and
decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn
That you really can endure.
That you really are strong
That you really do have worth
And you learn
And you learn
With every goodbye you learn.

This poem actually says alot. To me, at least. See through the lines and into the profound meanings behind this poem, it says alot.

With everything said, I shall end this here. Goodbye, with my love.

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Okay, I must blog about this. I was chatting with a Singaporean friend of mine, Jeremy just a moment ago and see this, SEE THIS!

(2:10 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: daym singapore LOL
(2:10 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: i wna fly thr on monday nd bck again jst t get breaking dawn ):
(2:10 PM) JER: haha
(2:10 PM) JER: oh
(2:10 PM) JER: maple?
(2:10 PM) JER: oh
(2:10 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: nawp hah.
(2:10 PM) JER: i thought u meant breaking down
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: i can't dwld maple ;/
(2:11 PM) JER: -_-
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: dawn :x HAHA
(2:11 PM) JER: wait
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: x3
(2:11 PM) JER: your coming to sg?
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: nah, i 'm not
(2:11 PM) JER: -_-
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: but i wna
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: gee ):
(2:11 PM) JER: whats breaking dawn
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: sequel t Eclipse o__o
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: uh, twilight series?
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: ring any bells?
(2:11 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: novel
(2:11 PM) JER: uhhh
(2:11 PM) JER: no
(2:11 PM) JER: lol
(2:12 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: -___- deng! lol
(2:12 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: its a novel, thts all you needa knw. i guess
(2:12 PM) JER: im checking out the price now
(2:12 PM) JER: if its affordable ill mail it to you
(2:13 PM) JER: while stocks last lol
(2:13 PM) JER: http://www.kinokuniya.com.sg/site/m=100&f=120&p1=1058922815&p2=1216360062
(2:13 PM) JER: ill tell you again on the 4th of august
(2:13 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: uhh, LOL nah.
(2:14 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: wht, you getting it fr me fr FREE? *eyes glistens* LOL (i think thts th word) o__o
(2:14 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: but nah
(2:14 PM) JER: erm
(2:14 PM) JER: yea
(2:14 PM) JER: why not
(2:14 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.:
(2:15 PM) JER: ill go down to the bookshop and check on monday
(2:15 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: but i think th hardcover one is pretty expensive but its ok, haha.
(2:15 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: still.. if can right. i wna hug you till your bones shatter!
(2:15 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: LOLOLOLOL
(2:15 PM) JER: haha
(2:16 PM) JER: ill help u check k?
(2:16 PM) JER: if its below S$40 ill get it for you
(2:16 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: DENG O__O!
(2:17 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: okkk, i think. but.. thnks fr even well, thinking? i dno. lol. thnks, i love you so much right this instant omg beyond words lol.
(2:17 PM) JER: you are so creepy young one
(2:17 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: HAHAHA, i am not creepy.
(2:18 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: jst well, a little over excited/joyed? LOL
(2:18 PM) JER: still
(2:18 PM) JER: creepy
(2:18 PM) ❥ Xinnykins.: hmph, ok thn. haha.

Oh my gosh, I love him so freaking much. I AM TOTALLY ECSTATIC! He is such a sweety. Oh my gosh, I love him so freaking much. Mind you, as a friend. But still, I LOVE HIM SO FREAKING MUCH! Oh my gosh, I can't stop "Oh my gosh"-ing. Oh my gosh, I'm a little too overjoyed. Oh my gosh, I don't why but it's hard for me to calm down. Oh my gosh, OH MY GOSH! Oh my gosh, I think I'm gonna go scream my lungs out. So yeah, talk later. Oh my gosh.