Unresolved family issues.
I can't communicate with my family. Don't say I never tried because I've tried for numerous times. I just don't know how to anymore so I stop altogether. It's depressing, really. There isn't a day I go by without thinking about how hard it is for me and my family to talk to each other and get through and every single time I think about it, tears fall relentlessly. I wish to be my parents' perfect, filial daughter but I am not entirely sure I would be genuinely happy, you know? I can't be who they want me to be so why can't they accept me for who I am? They keep moulding me into someone they want me to be and they never once considered my feelings and thoughts. I am a complete mess and I am in the twilight zone. I can't tell what's right and what's wrong anymore. I am still trying to find myself.
I look at how my friends and other people can get along so well with their family and I feel my heart break because I've forgotten how to even talk to my family. Their family understands but why can't mine?
I just feel like an utter disappointment everyday and I don't deserve to live.
Doesn't my happiness count?
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here I am reading your blog that i haven't been reading for months =____=
i think i'm gonna say harsh things here, i think, and please don't take my words too deep, yes, i shoot, i critic, i say things directly to people's face so it sounds harsh because it's how i am and lol i only managed to find people who doesn't mind when i'm in college here but anyway.
not many people can get along with their family very well now. especially teenagers as i noticed.
But. usually parents wants their children to be perfect, especially the older generations, it's not surprising. But not everyone can do it, which, also, is not surprising.
Well, i think you won't be yea, totally all happy if you became someone like that, not everyone are able to accept what one person is. I've hardly get people to accept who I am. But I don't want to care cause i'm being myself and i'm not them.
But, it's just my thought and opinion, no offend but.
You say they never once considered your feelings and thoughts.
Then how about you?
Did you considered your parents' feelings and thoughts as well? How much? What did you considered?
Well, something like that.
Well, nothing is right or wrong in this world anyway, because of that humans tried deciding what's right and wrong by themselves, that's why there's justice and law.
Nah, I've found quite a lot of people(of course teenagers) who had a hard time communicating or had an understanding between themselves and their parents.
It's not easy actually. Seeing that the time that teenagers and parents lived are quite different. It's sometimes hard for parents to grasp what the teenagers do or why they do it, what they're thinking.
Hmmmmm, i know i'm talking bullshit but, to me i can get along well with my families but no, i don't get along well with outside people actually. *SHOT* Cause it's more like, from the time when i was raised until now in my hometown, only my families accepted and understand who i am while the humans outside doesn't. They wouldn't stop bullshitting and poke their noses into my business and try their fucking best, their fucking generously best to change me into someone exactly like them, wow, what am I, a replica? Which is, yea, kind of the reason why i don't like humans, ah nevermind, you don't have to understand D8.
But, hmmm, when it comes to issues with yourself and your family, it's your own , how to say, risk? hmm nono, effort, yea, your own will and effort to overcome or bear the problem. D8
oh no, i wrote so long, sry Q3Q
oh, not just effort or will. I guess, luck? D8
if you and your family will really come in terms. @__@
You don't know anything. :)
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