who am i kidding?

There's tuition tommorow and that means I CAN SEE HIM. *screams* Sigh, I haven't seen him for one whole week. Part of me, can't wait for tommorow, but another part of me don't feel like going. I think it's becos I don't have the guts to face him and I don't know where to find the courage to. *sobs* I really don't and this is driving me mad. I feel awful. I feel like crying. *tears forming in my eyes* Why am I not happy? I finally get to see him again, then why am I not happy? What the heck is wrong with me? *sigh*