this moment, it's perfect.

I have school tommorow. I think everyone does. We're gonna have a gotong-royong perdana thing. Ugh. I don't feel like going to school tommorow. My mom's going too, for the Hari Pelanggan thing. MY MOM IS GONNA MEET MY TEACHERS. *sike* Just thinking about it gives me the shivers. I can't imagine my life after tommorow. I will be oh-so-dead. *shivers*

Anyways, I'm like sort of reading Ivy's LJ. One of the post bring tears to my eyes. *tears forming in my eyes* It is so.. emo.

I'm just so moody right now. *big fat sigh* I don't know what I'm so frustrated about, but I just am. This is why I hate being in love, I tend to get so emo about it. I'm so confused. I hate this feeling so the very much. How many times have I cried and gone to bed with swollen eyes. How many times have I looked at him longingly, only to turn away when he looked back. I'm so tired, but I can't give up. I know he's my happiness and I don't want anything else. So why aren't I getting any? I think not even God can answer these questions in my mind.

Sometimes I wish I could talk to you and tell you everything I feel. Do you have any idea how much you've always meant to me from the day we got to know each other? DO YOU EVEN HAVE A CLUE? :'(

I think I'll head for the sheets before I break down. Sleeping is the only time when I'll stop thinking about shit. Toodles.