Sleep tight, my love

Sometimes and only sometimes, I truly wonder if you really do care or if you think about me when I am not around and at rare times, I question myself if I am in your heart or am I being used right from the very start?

I was afraid to love you, I was terrified of falling for you because I know I would bound to get hurt someday but I took the leap of faith and dropped the L bomb. I didn't dare to utter the L word at the beginning because once the words were out, it would be real.. I would start believing and that means breaking down the walls I had built around my heart, putting myself in a vulnerable state and completely handing over my heart to you trusting that you wouldn't break my heart. And who knew I would still fall so madly in love with you.

Now, I love you so much to an extent that it engulfs me whole. I could never be able to forget you even just for a brief second because you're always on my mind. I could never be able to resist wanting you because you're all I want inside and every cell in my body screams your name. I could never be able to let you go because I can't ever see us apart. I could never be able to truthfully say that I don't love you because you're taking full control of my heart.


Even though I was and am absolutely aware that I could never take it all back, I've surrendered my whole heart and all of me to you and do you know why is that? It's because...I love you and I feel that somewhere in your heart, you love me too. Hopefully it is true.

...and you're probably sound asleep right now as I typed this long-winded entry because I couldn't fall asleep but thankfully, my eyes are growing weary and I am coming to an end. Sleep tight, my love. I hope you see me in your dreams. I miss you a whole lot - as well.