I can't find the right words to convey

I headed to KB today and only came back to Miri after dinner. I reached home at around 8-ish, I suppose. The plan initially (for myself) was spending the day with Babyboy (cum double date with Eunice and her boyfriend) considering today marks our 4th monthsary but Mum suddenly came up with an impromptu trip and foiled my plans. She aggravates me so badly at times, wtf. So yeah, nothing much to talk about the trip to KB. Had Excapade Sushi again and I can honestly say that I am starting to get sick of japanese cuisine, wtf.


When I was back in Miri, I intended to go for a drinking session with my friends or something but things didn't work out for me. So yeah, FML. I swear I was so bloody upset just now (How would any of you ever come down to understanding how I feel? Seriously? I hate feeling so restricted, ugh.) but I'm over it now, thank goodness. I shouldn't brood so much, wtf.

SWEAR I WAS SO BLOODY UPSET! I was so-o-o flushed with anger and tears gathered in my eye rims, wtf. Okay, wtf. I am over it so I shouldn't bring it up no more. Hah hah. Ignore me if you may.

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Happy 4th, Bee. I know the days we've been together are not considered long but I am proud that we are able to come this far as all of my past relationships never did. You're my longest yet and I hope we could last until the end of time. I wish you could hold on to me until my bones turn to dust. (Hah, wtf.)

Despite the occasional insecurities and paranoia, I don't think I had ever come down to the need to shed tears because of you.. 'Cause with you, I am genuinely happy. And I can truthfully say that I am blissfully attached without a sign of doubt. I love you so much, Bee. And I love you a little more everyday. :)

Happy 4th, I love you.