i want to have edward cullen's babies.

I am currently devoted to Breaking Dawn and needless to say, Edward Cullen. I am starting to like Jacob alot more too. Heh heh.

Take note, SPOILERS AHEAD!

I didn't know that vampires can reproduce and the thought of it never occured to me. It completely took me off guard. *swoons* I felt all feverish when I read that part when Bella and Edward were at it. Those who have read the novel should know what I'm implying. *eyesbrows go up and down* And it made me feel hopeful, somehow. OKAY, I think I'm gonna stop short here 'cause I don't wanna sound totally pathetic and out of sanity. So yeah, I think I kind of spoiled some parts of the novel but don't say I didn't warned you before. Hah.

Oh, I am not done with the novel yet because I don't feel like it. The fact that this, Breaking Dawn will be IS the last and final book of the Twilight Saga saddens me. *sighs in despair* I feel like.. If I finished the novel in one night, I would have nothing left to look forward to, nothing left to cling on. I don't want to feel like that. *whimpers* Therefore, I am gonna take my time and read every single word as I go through the pages. (Frankly speaking, I don't want it all to end so soon. *sulks*)

On the contrary of what I just said, I am dying to know what happens next and I mean, dying. Ugh, you have no idea how hard it is for me to try NOT to succumb. 'Cause if you were me, it'd be hard too. Seriously, if you knew the novel is just INCHES away from you, would you be able to not reach for it? 'Cause that is what I'm trying to do. *eyebrows knit together*

Gah, you know what? It it seriously a few inches away from me right at this moment and I can't stop my eyes from averting to the novel. A part of me is telling me to read it, another part of me is telling me NOT to. Gosh, this is giving me a headache. Let's move on to something else.

Oh yeah, I am suppose to be at school now actually for the backdrop thing but I kindofmaybesorta flaked out. I stayed back yesterday and to me, I wasn't really much help so.. I thought it wouldn't make much of a difference today. *grimaces* I hope I made the right decision.

Oh well. There is nothing I can do to turn back now. Hah hah.