curiousity killed my innocence.

You know how people say curiousity killed the cat? In my case, curiousity killed my innocence.

Let me tell you guys a story. It all started when I was eleven years old..

At that age, I did not have a computer of my own. I had to use my brother's computer to go online and stuffs. (My brother was then nineteen years old.)

On one perfectly fine day, I felt like listening to music. Thus, I, like what everybody else would do, opened Windows Media Player. Most of the time, there would be a list of songs showing at the side but on that perfectly fine day, there wasn't. "Swimming Teacher Rape" showed instead.

Indeed.. I, being a naive and dumb eleven years old kid that I was, clicked on it as I thought it was (OKAY, this is where the embarrassing part comes in. DO NOT LAUGH!) a swimming teacher RAPPING rather than being RAPED. To be honest, I wasn't sure what "rape" meant back then. Hah hah.

Intrigued by the title, I pressed play. At first, there wasn't much but after awhile.. There was when the most grotesque and traumatizing scenes appeared in front of me.

BEING UTTERLY TAKEN ABACK AND TRAUMATIZED, I CLOSED THE WINDOW WITH NOT A SECOND TO SPARE.

However, I let curiousity got the best of me. I opened Windows Media Player (again) and pressed play (again) and actually sat there and watched. Of course, there are parts where I skip and shield my eyes.

But still, you know my eyes were tainted and I was am no longer genuinely innocent.

Until this day, the video still vividly plays in my mind when I recall.

HEY, HEY, HEY! If you're gonna start pointing fingers, I'll have you know.. It is afterall, basic knowledge.