Everybody told me that I was gonna be okay, that it would take a little time, but I would heal. But why is it, what I'm feeling right now, it doesn't ever really go away, not completely.
Was I lost in you and me.. to the point I couldn't see that what we had was dying? Now it's all that I can do to see pictures of you and stop myself from crying. I should learn to live without your love.. got so many memories, but it's not enough. *sigh*
There was a time when I wasn't second best, there was a time when I was his top priority. It was a beautiful time because I knew I'd be recieving his phone calls and text messages, because I knew I'd be with him and I knew he'd be holding my hands. I knew that we were a "couple." That all of the other girls wanted to be me, but that I was his girl. Most of all, though I knew that back then he really did love me. And well within time that has left, within time he has lost almost all interest in me. I guess change really does happen. Either that or nothing was ever real between the two of us.
It's just another day where nothing seems to go right. Just another day where I won't sleep at night. It's just another day of not getting over you. A day spent thinking about what I should do.. another day wondering do you feel the same. That's the same question that keeps driving me insane.
p/s: I know the reason of the break up already. Hm, I guess it's pretty much my fault huh? Raaahs. I blame myself for everything. ):
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