i need my source of happiness.

Why you do this to me?
Why you treat me this way?
Why you don't tell me what's going on?
What happened to those things you said to me?
Are those just petty lies?
Where did the you I used to know go?

Could you please stop doing this to me?
Could you please stop treating me so cold?
Could you please stop treating me this way?
Could you please tell me what's going on?
Could you please tell me what do you want me to do to make it up to you?
Could you please tell me what's in your mind?
Could you not tell that I love you more than anything in this world?
Could you not tell that I'm trying very hard, struggling to maintain this relationship?
Couldn't you please just show that you still care?

I'm such an useless girl. I realize I'm not strong at all. I can't even stop myself from crying. After so many things that had happened, I realize how blissful I am in the past. Looking at his messages makes me tear. It brings back alot of memories and I just feel like going back to the past. I know it's too late. *sobs*

Please.. I'm pleading you. Stop doing this to me because I might go do something stupid like ... slitting and I don't want to. So please, don't make me do it.

As you all know.. Recently, me and my boyfriend sort of had a quarrel. Plus, the replies I received last night, it kinda agitate me to the extreme that I couldn't stop crying. Maybe he wasn't aware that I could get so hurt.

I hope everything will clear soon. I hope.