the lips lie but the eyes, ever so faintly betray the words.

I need to study.
I need to study.
I NEED TO STUDY.
Self-motivation is so not helping me. Yay.

I can't help it.. *sigh* I keep comparing myself with othersher eventhough I know I shouldn't. I should believe in him. I'm just paranoid, thinking too much? Pretty much. I don't wanna lose him. *sobs*

I want to run away.

from all my regrets.
from all the things I've done.
from all the decisions I've made.
from all the decisions to make.
from all the people I've broken.
from the people who have broken me.
from the person I used to be.
from the person I'm slowly becoming.
from the life I used to live.
from the times I fell in love.
from the times I pushed love away.
from all my self-destructive needs.
from the times I refused to fix things when I still had a chance.
but most of all, from me.