i'll stay strong, i'll go on.

@#$%^&*.

Ahh, I feel so much better now. My PC is getting slower and slower, suckier and suckier. I wonder why. Blah. Now to talk about my day eventhough it's not over yet, but I might not be able to blog later on. So yeah, here goes.

I woke up at 8 this morning, but I slept early last night. I hit the sheets around 9something at night. So I had almost 10hours of sleep? Yeaps. I had a nice long sleep. *satisfied face*

My day was pretty much normal, I think. I went out for breakfast with family. I thought we're gonna celebrate Father's day or something, but it seems pretty much not different to me. Oh well. At least, I did wished daddy Happy Father's Day. I'm so nice and such a good daughter. *grins* After eating, we went to Uncle Leonard Fong's new built single storey semi-detached(that's how you call 'em right?) houses at Lutong? Somewhere there, I think. The houses are pretty much okay. Blahblahblah. Anyone interested in buying? Hahah. Lame. -.-

Anyways, I studied. Hard to believe huh? I actually studied unwillingly. I was forced to study. Blarghs. Since I got back from breakfast until NOW. It was total torture-ness. Plus, I did MATHS. I learnt nothing eventhough I studied for like more than 3hours. No shit, 3hours or maybe more. UGH. I detest studying. It's all so pointless. WHY DO WE NEEDA STUDY?! I hate my school life except for the part where I get to meet my friends and stuff.

Geografi and Sejarah kerja kursus due this week. *gulps* I'm so doom. Can anyone please help me out? *no one answers* Sigh. I guess I just have to do it myself.

My life's a living hell. My big brother just accepted his new job in Miri few days ago. So he'll be moving back to Miri next month that means I'm gonna face him every single day, not just weekends but every single day. Ugh. Okay, maybe he just wants me to have a better future, a better life next time. But that doesn't mean he needs to control me? Ask force me to study all the time. I need my own space too, okay? This is my life, not his. Sheesh. Life sucks to the core. Life's being VERY BITCHY. I can't wait to get over with PMR. I can't wait till I can fully enjoy myself without worrying about shits.

p/s: I read Edlyn's last post about her mom giving her too much pressure, fricken teachers and all those shits. I don't know why, but it reminds me of myself. *tears forming at the back of my eyes* I have parents just like hers. They never don't encourage me and they look down on me. They never even try to understand how I feel and it makes me feel like running away from home, never coming back. Gone, gone forever.



I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end - we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and in peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.
-One Tree Hill